It was my birthday this weekend – and just before, it had been a day of much bookish chat, possibility and relief. Exciting things are happening, and I’ll keep you posted as soon as I know anything. But the reason I’m mentioning this is that I was chatting with someone who was just starting out on a really exciting project, and he said he was writing just because he enjoyed it.
When was the last time you did that? Wrote for fun? When it wasn’t for a pitch, or you planned for it to be a novel, or you’d worked out that you were going to self publish? When was the last time you removed all of the expectation of that story, and just let it tell itself?
Ironically, ego is the greatest barrier to creating something you’re proud of. Because you’re obsessed with writing something worthy, something important, and special. And that’s hard! Because you’ve built it up in your head. Who on earth can manage to work efficiently on a project whilst thinking ‘this is going to be really important’?
I’m not against wanting to create a work of art or being dedicated to perfection, but you know yourself better than anyone, and writing, like most creative pursuits, is about vulnerability – so ask yourself, why does the thing you’re writing need to be important? Why does it need to defend your desire to write?
And whilst you’re asking yourself questions, what about these:
Would you still write if no one read or liked what you wrote?
Would you still write if what you wrote was not important, but just fun, or entertaining?
Would you write if you got bad reviews?
What happens if you write something that isn’t important?
What is the worst thing that someone could say about your books?
Is there anything that could stop you from writing?
People write for a hundred different reasons – because it makes them feel good, because it’s fun, because it’s therapeutic, because it’s the easiest way for them to communicate, because they want to be heard…no matter what your reason is, let it come from love and passion, not ego. Ego doesn’t create good writing, it creates inauthenticity.
Find your reason, and enjoy the process. Writing is a gift- don’t waste it worrying on being the best.